“I just want to start with a blank page.”
An expression like this can stir up an array of emotions.
It can be an exciting prospect for some, the notion of starting new.
But for others, the mere idea of taking ink to a fresh sheet of paper incites pangs of anxiety.
Or maybe you are like me.
The excitement and anxiety are like two parallel streets that are so close together, you are not certain which one you will turn down..
Today, the road I have chosen is Anxiety Avenue.
I tend to take detours here when my focus is not clear.
Clearly on the Author of my life, that is.
My thoughts go back and forth like a teeter totter, with my shoulds and can’ts.
The weight of my own insecurities pushes me up and down again and again.
In those moments, the ones I have more of than I wish to admit, I forget that God has already set out a path for me.
My short-term memory has nothing to do with my 50 plus years, but my own need for a plan and immediate answers.
Just like the children of Israel, brought out of slavery in Egypt, I forget seeing the miraculous works of our Creator.
I see only the blank page before me.
Not the history behind me or my faith in the God who has already set a path before me.
The history that shows me that my God never fails me.
What can you do when you only see the blank page?
Remember these scriptures:
- “By faith we understand that the entire universe was formed at God’s command, that what we now see did not come from anything that can be seen.” Hebrews 11:3 NLT
God started with a blank page. Our Creator spoke the world into existence. If He can do that, our faith tells us that He can create a path for us as well. Even if we cannot see our future, God already does.
- “For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.” James 1:3 NLT
God is shaping us into who He created us to be. The shaping of character does not happen overnight. We need to have endurance for what lies ahead. This tests our faith, but we need to remember that the Author of our lives is giving us opportunities to grow.
- “Because of Christ and our faith in Him, we can now come boldly and confidently into God’s presence.” Ephesians 3:12 NLT
God knows if we are feeling anxious or excited about our future. He invites us to draw close to HIm and to share our hearts. We should never be afraid to go sit at His feet. Go boldly to Father God and ask for wisdom and guidance. He never withholds Himself from His children.
Friends, tuck these verses into your heart as a daily reminder of His love for you.
I do not know what test you are facing right now, but my prayer is that you do not focus on the blank page, but on the One who holds the pen.
“I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will empower you with inner strength through His Spirit. Then Christ will make His home in your hearts as you trust in Him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep His love is.” Ephesians 3:16-18 NLT